Today is Spy Wednesday. It might be the coolest named day of
Holy Week, but without its own distinct service, it’s probably the least known
in the West (the East regularly fasts on Wednesdays to mark this). Spy
Wednesday is the day that Judas betrayed Jesus for 30 pieces of silver. This
the moment of betrayal.
But it has been difficult for me to completely vilify Judas.
I obviously think what he did was wrong, but I see my own flaws. That could
have been me. He was still expecting the Messiah to be something else and was
disappointed. He was struggling with greed. Even the Church won’t state that he’s
in hell, so who am I to judge?
Maybe it’s because so many movies these days love to flip
the script: the dark hero, the relatable villain. Good and evil are shades of
gray. It’s all about who’s telling the story, right? It’s all relative. Except
it’s not. Some things are black and white. Judas was wrong. He turned God over
for greed.
Jesus says of him: “Woe to that man by whom the Son of Man
is betrayed. It would be better for that man if he had never been born.”
(Matthew 26:24)
Understanding him only shows my own sin. Wanting him to be a
relatable villain only shows my own desire to obfuscate sin, to make good and
evil just two shades of the same thing. Yet despite uncertainty and discernment
and complex theology, ultimately, it is simple. There is that which works
towards God’s will and that which works against it.
The betrayal, turning over Jesus to death, is the pinnacle
of working against God’s will. Of course, God will use that action for his will
to be done, but Judas’ heart was hardened. This was a bad, evil thing. We
should remember it with disgust and anger and sorrow. And may we never be the
one to ask, “Surely, it is not I?”
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