The past two weeks
have been emotionally exhausting in various ways. One thing that has gotten me
through has been the morning and afternoon concerts on NPR. I’ve never been
someone who casually listens to classical music, but suddenly, it was not only
enjoyable, it was filling some void that other methods of self-care were not.
I like words. I like
writing and finding the most accurate way of describing a situation. I like to
overanalyze and pontificate. But sometimes there are experiences and emotions
that cannot sufficiently be expressing through language (or at least my limited
language). Mystical encounters, dark depression, the agony of
alienation—moments that defy reason yet somehow seem more real than everyday
reality.
And that’s the
importance of music. It touches on that reality beyond our words and reasons.
Even as someone who usually prefers the lyrics to the melody, I have to admit
that good melody and soaring instrumentation makes the lyrics wholly secondary.
I don’t need the Latin or Italian or German to understand the universal human
experience being expressed.
And this goes to my
complaint about bad church music too. You can’t tell me that Mozart’s Great
Mass in C Minor and Dan Schutte’s Mass of Christ the Savior are equal in their
beauty or transcendence (and even then, it seems like chant is fundamentally
better). There are such things as preference and taste, but there are objective
standards too. I don’t have to know the words or even the flow of the Mass to
give into the music of Mozart’s Mass. I surrender, and the music carries me. It
was written to carry me. It builds, pulling me ever upward, reminding me of my
place in the universe, of the beauty of creation, of the love of God. Schutte’s Mass reminds me of the need for
better catechisis.
Sometimes words are
necessary. It is good to analyze a situation or an emotion, to name it and
properly understand it. But sometimes words only get in the way. They fail to
grasp the weight or intensity. They cloud the experience, create distance
between myself and the emotion. If I’m busy describing it, then I don’t have to
feel it. Words become a cloak to hide behind, to mask the feelings or the
silence. Sometimes it’s best to forgo words.
God is loud in
silence. Cardinal Sarah said, “The only reality that deserves our attention is
God Himself, and God is silent. He waits for our silence to reveal
Himself. Regaining the sense of silence is therefore a priority, an urgent
necessity.”
But if the silence
is too much reality to bear, then giving oneself over to chant or classical
music is a good place to start.
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